Guatemala Part II
I still need to write about my first trip! But today I finished up my vaccination for one of the hepatitis strains I started long ago for this trip to Guatemala. I was also asked by Pastor if I wanted to go.
I’ve been warring with this decision for a long time. My faith is pretty shrunken currently. I don’t feel it flowing like it had. There’s a war inside of me, and it’s been a difficult journey. I felt unworthy to go on this trip. Yet when I think about the trip, the only part that I truly disliked was coming home. It was being in the airport in Atlanta.
When everyone else was saying how much they couldn’t wait to get home, to see children, grandchildren, spouses, and so on, all I could think was there was no one thing particularly pulling me towards home. So why go home? So why not go back to Guatemala?
I’m getting closer to who I was a year ago. I’m eating more wisely, I’m writing more often, I’m getting closer to working out, and maybe I’ll start getting closer to God again. Have to keep trying, anyway.
To Guatemala! I’m excited to go and see what it brings.
I cried out with no reply, and I can’t feel you by my side. So I hold tight to what I know. You’re here. And I’m never alone.
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One of my favorite songs. 🙂 I’ve been praying for you and will continue to pray. You WILL have a friend here to come back too, and I’m sure I’m not the only one. I also hope this trip helps you find your footing again.
~Steph~
Also look up Never Alone – An Urd and World of Elegance AMV on Youtube. It’s an Oh My Goddess AMV that I ran across several years ago during my last year in college, and it got me through a rough time. Urd is a character who is half goddess and half demon and has to battle with her darker side at times. This video is what introduced me to this song! 😀
~Steph~
Understood Paul. I go through periods like you’re describing. Lent always seems to pull me back.
BTW, is it true that they’re changing the name of the country to Guatebuena? 🙂
lol Did I typo? That happens a lot. It took about two months before I could spell it right 😦